About Me — As an Ensō
My life has been a quiet circle
where the sun and moon slowly meet.
Core / Essence — The Seed of Life
After collapsing from a serious illness,
I touched the boundary between life and death.
The world fell silent,
and only a faint resonance of life remained.
That stillness aligned with the Japanese sensibilities of kuu (emptiness) and ma (sacred space),
gently illuminating the inner depths.
There, I found the source of healing.
Sun — My Given Brightness and the Outer World
I was born with a natural brightness—
joyful, expressive, full of light.
But in Japan’s quiet atmosphere,
I felt a collective tension, a quiet endurance,
and I longed to breathe freely.
In England, I met Italians who lived joyfully,
and I moved to Italy to find the source of that light.
There, I encountered the roots of human warmth:
love for land, family, and community.
I saw how small daily joys could become a way of life.
And I realized—
Japan had once held this light too,
but somewhere along the way,
we had quietly lost it.
I returned to Japan, hoping to share that light.
I entered the world of PR,
but business demanded numbers, results, and constant performance.
I began to wonder:
“Is communication destroying what makes us human?”
Moon — The Depth of Stillness and Inner Truth
In that moment of collapse,
I returned to the quiet.
Tea ceremony and ikebana embraced me.
I remembered my student days, when I wrote an academic paper on In’ei Raisan (In Praise of Shadows) by Jun’ichirō Tanizaki—
the beauty of shadow and light,
the quiet dignity of Japanese tradition.
As an adult, when my inner light began to fade,
I surrendered to the world of tea and flowers.
And there, I found peace.
My tea teacher once said:
“Tea is love. It holds both self-respect and respect for others.”
I carry that teaching in my heart,
and continue my quiet practice each day.
When I faced my own vulnerability,
the moon began to shine—
not on its own,
but by receiving the light of the sun.
Integration — Becoming an Ensō
Life holds both shadow and light.
To deny one is to lose the whole.
Living only in the sun burns us out.
Living only in the moon dims our path.
But when we embrace both,
and return to the stillness within,
the sun and moon become one circle—
and a quiet light is born.
That light is what I write from.
It is the path I call
A Quiet Place to Heal Within.
Through poetry and story,
I invite others to gently descend into their own depths,
to touch the quiet kindness already within,
and to begin healing, softly.
The journey continues through my work
Why I Began to Write-
I collapsed without warning and found myself standing at the edge
between life and death.
Even after leaving the hospital, my body would suddenly stop,
and each day was filled with uncertainty.
Writing became the one small way
I could feel alive— a quiet act of breathing on paper.
As my health slowly returned,
I didn’t want to forget the depth of that suffering
or the quiet light I found within it.
Around that time,
friends from around the world began sharing their struggles with me.
I translated my words into their languages and offered them gently.
When they told me their hearts felt lighter,
that they could breathe again, I realized something.
If the resonance of this fragile life could reach one person,
perhaps it could reach many.
Perhaps the world could become
a little more alive,
a little more kind.
That is why I decided to turn these words into a book.